forget to remember

I hope you hear me. Give me back her hands. Give me back her touch. I don't ask for much. I think everything is going great. Give it a moment. I'll fuck it up again. My issue is I never know what I do that's so wrong. I don't want you to forget about the house, or forget about the ring. I remember everything. Every day. Give me back my girl and you give me back my life.

This is just a nightmare so I blink twice. I pinch myself so that I wake. I'm sweating beneath these covers. I open up my eyes, hoping she'll be in my sight. Reminders all over my walls, in my ears. Everyone asks about you. My mom and my friends. Sometimes even my dad. Remember what he said?

I hope I never see the day where you're wishing you never met me because I'm sitting here, begging that you never forget me.

I'm sick just writing this, hands inside of me, ripping at my stomach. Prying at the walls. Bleeding me out. I have no will to move, no motivation to get out of bed.

I hope she remembers soon before she forgets it all.