All I'm asking you to do is finish this sentence as a comment on here anonymously.
It can be a sentence or it can be a paragraph. It's up to you.
All you have to do is be completely honest. Hence why people are staying anonymous.
Write what's real ... to you.
"If you really knew me, you'd know that ... "
I am not put together as well as I seem. I try really hard to keep the "happy" act on at all times.
ReplyDeleteim packed full of emotions
ReplyDeleteI love my brother more than anything and he is my best friend. I dont know what I would do without him. I worry that he wont become everything I know he can be because he doesn't think he can. AND Im terrified to die and sometimes have panic attacks if I think about dying mostly at night.
ReplyDeleteI really care about others
ReplyDeletereality is waking up knowing that one day all the hard work will pay off. Knowing that what your doing right then will affect your children. reality is waiting for your true love instead of searching for a fling.
ReplyDeletesometimes i seem like the happiest ball of smiles, but when i go home it all drains from my body and there is nothing let but depression and anger and hate. if you really knew me, you'd know that i am in an unhappy relationship and waiting for one fuck up to completely end it because i am to much of a pussy to leave the man i've been with for 3 years on myself. i feel like i am withering away and like there is a whole nother world out there that i haven't seen, and i'm too afraid to leave behind the old, safe world. i am afraid that no one will really love me and i am afraid that i will never learn how to love myself.
ReplyDeleteI have a dark side ...
ReplyDeletemy heart is huge. love your enemies is easy for me cause i can forgive so easily. sometimes thats my worst downfall
ReplyDeletei am a sexual creature and i am nervous to express myself completely due to my horribly negative body image. i feel that no one will truely accept me because of my inner and, especially, my outter flaws. if you really knew me, you'd know that i'd give anything to have a pair of nice tits. i feel that without nice boobs, something i do not have, my whole body is completely ruined and others will laugh at me. please do not judge me.
ReplyDeletethat even though im so young i have been through more than people who have lived to be 100. through abuse, poverty, a battle with cancer, and trying to live up to everyones expectations i have always had to just suck it up and be strong. i have always been there for people when i needed them, but yet everytime i needed someone they havent been there for me. this is me saying im not as strong as i appear to be, and that i need someone to help me through the bad times. I AM HUMAN contrary to popular belief, and even though i may seem like super girl, i need someone to lean on.
ReplyDeleteI don't want anyone to know who I really am because I don't even know who I really am.
ReplyDeleteeveryone thinks i have the perfect life and that i am happy all of the time but in reality i am miserable and i constantly worry about everything. i am extremely self conscious and will do anything to maintain and or to lose weight. there is only one thing that truly makes me happy in my life.
ReplyDeleteShane... Question.... and then comment...
ReplyDeleteQuestion: This about YOU?... My comment about Shane: Wants to live in the country, and be content.
No, not about me. About you. Answer it for you.
ReplyDeleteI was extremely addicted to pain killers in high school to the point of almost ODing multiple times. I have been clean since August 28th, 2009 and I am really glad I was able to get away from that lifestlye and get my shit together and back on track with living life.
ReplyDeletemarijuana is the only thing that really keeps me going and gets me through lifes daily struggles
ReplyDeleteThat I think with my heart and not my head. Which can be detrimental at times but it is who I am. I also believe that you should live every day to it's fullest, because you never know when it will be your last.
ReplyDeleteI'm highly disappointed, by myself, everyone around me and humanity in general. I'm dying for someone to take an interest in me, to understand me in my entirety. I wish i was more content with my body image, but this is an endless battle. you should know my life isn't a fantasy, things don't come as easy to me as people assume. I'm still looking for a sign
ReplyDelete.. the only thing keeping me alive is my Mother and girlfriend.
ReplyDeleteI may be eloquent, high-class, display of respectful mannerisms, charm, and wit, but deep down I am as cold as a diamond. I am, by definition, my own best friend. I can be the centerfold to teenage tragedies and heartache. Somehow, I am still cofident in myself, with hope and love for the masses.
ReplyDeleteI actually fell in love. Everything I've said I thought about love was true, but now that I have been proven wrong, I think I have a better relationship than anybody else, and he agrees. I am astonished that it is real, can happen, and that it happened to me. Lastly, I am so embarrassed that I sound like one of those stupid girls, even though it is actually true. <3 <3 Don't look for love in someone else. When you are ready to love yourself and know what you deserve, it will run you over like a mac truck.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I seem like I'm always strong and confident, I feel weak, lonely and helpless at times.....I wish there would always be someone beside me....
ReplyDeleteI love you all. No matter your issue, no matter what you've done or who you are, I love you. When you feel alone or unloved, remember there is someone out there loving you at all costs. I don't know you, I don't need to. You are perfect, you are flawless, and you are beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI've had an eating disorder since middle school. My family staged an intervention last fall, I was medically diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia. I mostly practiced anorexic behaviors. I went to inpatient treatment and did very well in recovery for about a month. Everyone thinks I'm doing very well still. But really I'm not. Yeah I'm eating. But I've turned to my bulimic behaviors. I have lost all my post inpatient weight. And I intend on living like this as long as I can. I'm not stupid. I just really don't know what I would do without my eating disorder. Yeah. I'm sick. I know.
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me, you'd know that my life revolves around trying to make myself as perfect as i can, so he will just give me a chance.
ReplyDeleteI can never finish anything in my life. I strive for the best and almost always end up giving up, believing that the uphill battle for the things that I want are almost too much to handle. It's a constant struggle, stressing about my failures and mishaps, which ultimately leads to depression, which cycles back to me giving up on everything. I'm really afraid that I'll never be satisfied with anything in my life.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me you'd know that I am not a moral person, I just believe too seriously in karma and generally do good things for other people to benefit myself ; I am selfish
ReplyDeleteall i want is to know that i can move on, and everything will be okay. i'll be okay. it will all work out in the end, and i'll be better off.
ReplyDeleteI try so hard to seem perfectly fine like nothing can phase me. I have such a big heart that I hurt myself and I wish I could be selfish sometimes but I can't. I allow every person in my life to walk all over me.
ReplyDeleteI hate to hurt people.
ReplyDeleteI'm scared.
ReplyDeletei hate myself
ReplyDeleteI tried to kill myself once. When I woke up the next morning, I took that as a sign that I wasn't meant to die. I hate myself. I can't stand all the shit people have put me through. Everyone has disappointed me by doing things that I never thought they would do to me. I've disappointed myself. I always see the good in people, but they never fail to let me down. My boyfriend has disappointed me the most. I love him more than anything. And over the past 3 1/2 years we've been together, he's been the one constant in my life when everyone else got too busy wrapped up in their lives. He doesn't know it, but he's completely broken me and my trust. I wish things were different.
ReplyDeletethat I am passion, I am in love with almost everything and everyone in my life. I am sensitive. I hate to hurt people, and the rawness and vulnerability that is such a part of me cleverly masked by humor and false-confidence. I am dependent on those I love, as much as I hate it, I am nothing without them. WE are nothing without the people we love.
ReplyDeleteHope in spite of hopelessness. I'm clinging to this notion that some day everything will change. I'll wake up from the nightmare and someone will be there loving me and wanting me.
ReplyDeletei make fun of the popular girls for sleeping around and being so dependent upon having drama in their lives but deep down i admire the confidence they have in themselves, and the fact that they don't give a shit what anyone else thinks about them.
ReplyDeleteit's always only the tip of the ice burg with me.
ReplyDeleteFriendships kind of scare me...
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me you'd know im bat shit crazy. i have one of the biggest hearts out of anyone you'll ever meet. im unbearably stubborn, but not really a bitch, as much as i may come off as one. nor am i whore. i'm far from perfect, and have no problem with that. i'm in love, and trying to keep a smile on my face & stay hopeful of the future. if you really knew me, and i liked you, we could be pals.
ReplyDeletei let my emotions get the best of me sometimes. It scares me when things don't go the way they are planed. even though I know God is on my side, i fear that i will never get to my goal in life sometimes, which really freaks me out.
ReplyDeletei didn't really sleep with all those people. i over-exaggerated because it made me feel cool. now i just feel alone.
ReplyDeletei have alot of unseen secrets... and sometimes i wish people would notice them... i strive to be complemented and i ignore the gifts i've been given and i take them for granet
ReplyDeleteI'm scared of failing
ReplyDeleteI'm a mess. I never knew my dad although I was told by many that he loved me deeply. You would know that my mother was heavy into into drugs and it eventually took her life when I was 7. You would know that at the age of 2 I had already learned not to trust anyone and I learned to fend for my own. You would know that I'm a very angry person and I blame all my problems on everyone else but myself. You would know that my sexuality is a question to me. You would know that I was made fun of all through elementry school, middle school, and high school. You would know that I let everyone down. You would know that I'm not a suicidal person but I'll do whatever I can to shorten my life span. You would know that I'm paranoid that someone is out to kill me. You would know that my best friend takes her boyfriends side over mine, all the time. You would know, that I hate my life.
ReplyDeleteI am a disaster. Im packed to the brim with emotion
ReplyDeleteeven though it seems like I have tons of people around me at all times, I still feel lonely, a bit insecure. I feel like I am just in their way and that I am not much of worth to them, even though they always tell me how much they appreciate to be around me and how much help I have been to them. Sometimes I wish I never felt this way..
ReplyDeleteI'm really not happy, I have my good days, but, I'm just not happy.
ReplyDeleteyou would know that right now I am dealing with a break-up. I fell so hard and so fast for him and now he treats me like I don't exist. As if our time together meant nothing. I can't face him because I am so terrified of what he will say. Even if what he said was good, like he misses me too, that would only make me want him more and further destroy me. I've never had anyone affect me this way and it's so surreal. He says that we could "still be friends." That's like saying "oh your dog is dead, but you can keep him." I want things to go back to the way they were but I know that it's unrealistic. If you really knew me, you would know that I just want to get over him.
ReplyDeletewe should never call u chelsea !!!
ReplyDeleteIf your really knew me you'd know that I am not what I seem. Under my exterior I am so hurt and so weak, I have so much anger but don't know what to do about it. For the most part I am confused, I am confused about who i am and who I love.
ReplyDeleteI'm an amotivated slug of a man who, if he gets his shit straight, will play a part in the next stage of human evolution.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me... You would THINK that I am a very happy person. Every person I meet tells me that I'm unlike anyone they've met. I project happiness and positivity, but on the inside I'm vulnerable and scared. I lay awake sometimes, watching the sun rise, and I wish that there was someone that be there with me. I miss being in love. I keep looking for someone to hold me, kiss me, and just lay in bed with a few joints all day. But I'm scared to try again.
ReplyDeleteI told a friend to do whatever he wanted.
ReplyDeleteHe killed himself.
i am afraid that one day i will get a phone call and no longer have my daughter because of the things she chooses to do in life and the risks she takes!
ReplyDeleteI procrastinate and put things off because I'd rather enjoy life and enjoy the moment instead of running around worrying about the other side of reality. Of course, that bites me in the ass, but ultimately, it's worth it.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know I'm not as innocent as I seem.
ReplyDeleteI have great faith in people, my friends and co-workers, my family and myself... but none in God.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know i hate looking in the mirror at myself each morning and want to shatter the mirror.
ReplyDeleteMy family is first and foremost in my life, and I would never trade them for anything, but sometimes I wish I could have done something amazing for myself in my life like be a famous actress or rock star. Life has been hard for me, I never stop hoping and I never stop trying but I'm very self conscious about myself and am often intimidated which inhibits me and causes me to hold back a lot when it comes to really 'going for it' in regards to auditions for all things i.e. singing, acting, modeling, but even though I'm scared and often don't feel like I'm 'good enough', I never stop trying.
ReplyDeletemy sister doesn't speak to me and it breaks my heart more and more everyday.
ReplyDeletei think about suicide way more than people think.
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me, I'd let you hop aboard my sailboat, and we'd venture through the vast sea of existence.
ReplyDeleteAnd we could learn and grow from our time spent together.
And we could seek guidance from the stars, the sun, the moon, the earth.
And we could let the wind grace our naive and fragile minds.
And we could fight the current with the power of the past
And we could train our trespassing eyes to trust
And we could fall in love with our world and each other
It's just a matter of finding the right sailor
I believe I found him
Controlling my desire for pleasure (sexual, gastronomical, social, recreational) is my greatest challenge. I'm much more selfish then I allow anyone to see. If I had my way I'd take everything I wanted, and it would be so easy.
ReplyDeletewhat's real to me is waking up next to my boyfriend and knowing already that i'll be with him forever. he's the only man i can picture in my life and makes my heart fill up with so much joy. love like ours is as real as it gets, because it's not perfect, but it's perfect for us.
ReplyDeleteI really have no ideas who I am.. Sometimes I find myself just sitting there thinking about who I am and if I really even know myself, and how others see me.
ReplyDeletei love every single one of you :)
ReplyDeletesorry... not anonymous.
you'd know that I was the victim.
ReplyDeleteWeed.
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ReplyDeletei've seen both of my parents struggle with addiction. i worry constantly that my brother will follow the same path, & i feel like i abandoned him by going far away to school. i've made a promise to myself to never go down the path of addiction but i've got my own problems. i've sought out attention from guys because i feel like if someone loves me, i'll feel normal, i'll forget about all the problems with my family & just be able to escape into that person. most of the time i just feel lost, & like i'm not even good enough for another person to love me.
ReplyDeletei am extremely insecure even though i dont act like it. im looking for THE one even though i know its too early. i may get into a good relationship with a significant other or just a friend and i start to shy away. because of ONE incident my freshman year of college. the one incident that ruined my life for me. i get by thanks to my family even though they dont know what actually happened but they know theres something wrong. insecurity is a girl's enemy and its unfortunate that it happens to the majority of us. drugs is not the answer although i result to them to put me in a state of mind where i will be outgoing and will want to be the center of attention.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy life now, Im happy with the person I am today, confused-am I a lesbian, straight, or both!! I just dont know. I love penis and girls intrigue me, Im attracted to girls, had my fun here and there. Im as serious as it gets, some may call me mean but I just speak the truth whether you want to hear it or not. I love my friends and family-I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them. I enjoy the company of others but most of all..MJ is my bff and sex is my hero!!
ReplyDeleteP.S.
I have a crush on you shane
If you really knew me, you'd know that I think this is bullshit...
ReplyDeleteI have no idea what I want to do with my life in my professional career. I'm in my 4th (but not final) year of college, and I have a defined major, even a minor, but I still do not know what I want to do with it.
ReplyDeleteGuess I'm a little behind the ball on the whole "What Do You Want to Be When You Grow Up" bit.
If you really knew me, you would know that although I seem to have a hard shell it actually all the contrary. I have a gentle heart that easily hurts. That is the real reason I stay away and allow just a handful of people to enter my domain.
ReplyDeleteHP
as much as I hate it I care way to much about what others think of me. I am not proud of myself but none of my friends will ever know it. I will do almost anything to make others like me, and it makes me feel pathetic. I go through weeks where I hate myself and weeks where I love myself.
ReplyDeleteI think I might be an alcoholic.
ReplyDelete...I strive to be nothing but love to anyone and everything. It's the only real connection between humanity and God.
ReplyDeleteI have some anger issues and too much negative energy.
ReplyDeleteI would do anything, and go anywhere to help someone in need.
ReplyDeleteYou would also know that your kinda my type :P
If you really knew me you'd know that I keep myself inside all the time because I'm afraid of the world outside. I'm afraid of not being good enough, or not getting through it on my own. Because that's how I always feel, like I'm on my own. I try to plan my life around not going out, and not being away from home for too long, because my anxiety always get's the best of me, I get sick and have panic attacks. I'm afraid to get help for it because I'm on enough pills just to go to sleep at night, I don't want to be on any more pills because someone else thinks I'm crazy. I figure I've made it this far on my own, I'll make it even further. I never give up, even If I don't always put 100 percent into helping myself. I always try, which I guess is more than alot of people can say...
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that although I may appear to be on a great track to even greater things, I regret most of my decisions of the past two years.
ReplyDeletepeople think i have it all together and i'm the one people go to for support and advice. really, i'm a mess but i can't tell anyone because i don't think that they would understand. i've been bulimic on and off for the past 8 years. no one knows. every day is a stuggle, and i cannot go one day without thinking about what i'm eating, and how i'm going to the lose the weight. i cut when i'm stressed or upset, it calms me down.
ReplyDeleteI am not sure who I am anymore. I am trying to find myself. The strong person that once liked herself. No one else seems to get it. I feel inferior to my friends, because they are skinny, wear crazy outfits, or they just have a better personality. I need this years old self hatred to end.
ReplyDeleteI don't get a lot of attention from guys. I have only really liked guys who were gay, already in a relationship, or only wanted sex. I blame my body, my personality, even my friends for this. Even though, I just haven't noticed the right person.
I preach self-love and the perfect person will come along. But I can barely look at myself with a little happiness nevermind a smile. I have given up on myself for too long.
If you really knew me you would know that although I come off as confident, in control, and sometimes even cocky, I'm far from any of it. You would know that I don't sleep at night because as soon as I fall asleep I have the most vivid dreams that keep me stuck in a past that I just want to forget. You'd know that although everyone thinks I've stopped cutting, I'll always be a cutter and that even now, years later, I still slip up, more than just occasionally. If you knew me you would know that I've struggled with an eating disorder for the past three years and that I have no intentions of doing anything about it. In fact, it makes me increasingly more depressed that I struggle to keep myself from eating these days. If you really knew me you would know that I use sex and flirting with girls to make me feel like I'm in control of something, when the truth is since the day my heart was broken I can't even look another girl in the eye anymore. But most importantly, if you really knew me, you would know that all I want is one person that I could say all of this to in person and know that they would still be there in the end.
ReplyDeleteI miss yesterday far more than I look forward to tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteI don't like looking in the mirror and seeing what I see there. I pretend to love myself but it's just an act. It doesn't matter how many people love me, until I love me I will never be truly happy. That thought terrifies me because what if I never do?
ReplyDeletei cry every time i pray, my mom is my best friend, i'm terrified of being alone for the rest of my life and i NEVER want to be called stupid.
ReplyDeleteI write quotes in a leather bound book, these quotes are funny,sad,inspirational,lyrical, and biblical.Each one of these words I scribe have a meaning to me and only me. My notes and scribbles next to them make each quote and phrase more personal and give me hope. I carry it where ever I go and when I feel inferior or unwanted I read them and they give me a well needed boost of self confidence.
ReplyDeletei plan to rule the world someday
ReplyDeleteI am extremely shallow and jealous, and I spend 90% of my life convincing myself that I am not, that I am not egotistical, insecure, and fixated on my self-image. I loathe myself for it.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you would know that my friends are my life. I don't care if I live or die. You would know that my phone is always on and that I am there for anyone at anytime.
ReplyDeleteA total mess and misfit. Wish I could feel content with myself.
ReplyDeleteThat i have no confidence in myself, i worry too much about everyone but myself. That because i have had my heart broken so many times its hard to be comfotable enough to open myself up now. That my worst fear is death, and to lose anyone close to me. That i hold onto things to much, i try to hold on to memories that are not worth holding onto anymore. I HATE change and it gives me panic attacks if things change too drastically. You would know that i put on a show for people because im afraid to express myself completely for fear of people not liking who i really am
ReplyDeleteYoud know that I am fun to be around and can make anyone laugh, even when they hate the world. Youd also know that in Middle School I saved the life of a dear friend and in High School that friend fought for mine. And lastly youd know that the world is full of shitty people but its people like me who make it all worth while.
ReplyDeleteyou would know that no matter what I do, I am not good enough. Not good enough for my mother or even myself. I try to be responsible but I will never measure up to my siblings. I will always be the one who did not amount to anything and it is the worst feeling in the world.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me you would know that I think life is just preparing us for a better life. I don't know where or who with, maybe God, maybe not.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that...the most important thing to me is trust, and if I lose my trust in someone, it will never come back.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that ...
ReplyDeleteyou don't know me at all. Its not that i'm a liar, I speak more than I should sometimes. But you'll never know me for ME, because I don't say much about myself. You'd never know that i haven't dreamed in years, all i have is reality.
I write as if I'm saving the world doing it, but none of it is good.
I'm happy, genuinely happy. I guess.
I plan on leaving this world as soon as its a little better than from the time I came in. Even if i have to live in the memory of this world forever. I'd gladly dance in this unsteady purgatory just to make a difference.
Shane Simmers, your beautiful btw.
If you really knew me, you'd know that...
ReplyDeleteI honestly thought I'd be dead by now. But I'm doing the opposite, and actually living this dream life I never thought possible.
If you really knew me, you'd know that my current life is a self imposed sanction on previous sins.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that ... I'm the most depressed person you'll ever meet. I cry myself to sleep, I don't know what true happiness is. I don't know if ever will.
ReplyDeleteI am very self conscious, and try to come off as a happy person when on the inside I am screaming. I really am sad inside and I secretly cut myself to try and make everything better in my life when nothing is going the way it is suppose to! I am dieing inside and don't feel like I have anyone to talk to.
ReplyDeleteif people really knew me, they would know that I just want everyone around me to be happy. i survive off happiness, if your sad you drag me down. I go out of my way to see people smile, even if there random strangers. its like a light is turned on under your skin when people smile, its beautiful.
ReplyDeleteyou'd know that I don't think a single person loves me or ever will love me--any type of love. I think I'll be alone forever.
ReplyDeletethat I have finally found what I want out of life, but know I can never find it.
ReplyDeletethat i'm insecure, but act confident. i'm complicated, but seem simple. i'm weak, but appear strong. and above all, one day i hope to be all the things other people admire about me.
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me, you'd know I was destined for greatness.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me... you'd know that since trying to kill myself countless times in 7th grade ..everyday since then I have to fight myself to not cut and think of killing myself atleast once every single day, not because I want to die but because I want a different life. I want to be everything Im not because I know I would be happy which I believe is the true point/goal of life. I want to be skinny but not too thin, I want to be a hard worker but be payed well for it, I want to be the "popular" girl that everyone likes even if its just for a day to see what its like, but most of all I just want to start over and not disappoint the only people I have in; my mom and grandparents. I want to be able to feel truly happy and erase all of my regrets, mistakes, and people who broke my heart out of my heart and mind forever. This is why I think of death everyday. And if I knew this would happen, I would kill myself right this second.
ReplyDeleteim just a scared little girl with no friends, who feels completely alone and helpless in this world, i put on a front to try and save myself from letting people know how scared i really am,
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that ...
ReplyDeleteI'm mostly smoke and mirrors. The ego, the shake of my hips as I walk, the flamboyant waving of hands that punctuates well-woven words, the pseudo-intellectual philosophy and feminism and other senseless schools of thoughts--they are, more or less, a sort of costume. There was a book, once, written by a skillful hand; one of many central focuses was the idea of the Dancer--one who constantly puts on the most intricate ballet, a complicated series of turns and twists, the flight of hands and the retreat of words to attain the ultimate goal of love and caring. I dance daily. For all my flailing, I want to be a mom when I grow up.
I am not emotionless. I live my feelings so fully that they saturate every instant of every action, that they become who I am, that their integration into my being gives me the peace and calm to explain myself without anger, without tears.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that I'm falling in love and I'm scared to death of what she feels.
ReplyDeleteI smoke too many cigarettes.
ReplyDeleteFamily is EVERYTHING to me!!! I eat it, I drink it, I sleep it, I live it, I LOVE IT!!! This includes FRIENDS as they are part of my family!!! I am blessed with the BEST family and look very much forward to continue experiences with them all!!!
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you would know that I hate my life. Smiling and laughing is something I do often but not always something I enjoy. I spend my spare time researching quick and easy ways to die. Despite the good life I have had, I do not feel cut out for this world and I'm not sure how much of this I can take.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me you would know that I'm scared. I want so many things in life and I'm afraid I will never reach my goals. I want to be like my mother but not so much my father. Im jealous of other people and I want to have the best. I will secretly sabotage people to make sure that they do not get anything better then I have. If they do I pretend to be happy for them but I am not. I hate being this way and I dont know why I am. I'm scared to make wishes because I am afraid it will come true but also give me something I dont want (ex. I wish I didnt have to go to work today and then I get fired so I do not have to go). I try to act like things are not serious not because I dont care but because I am not strong enough to handle it. There is one person in the world that I love more then anything and I would honestly kill myself if anything happened to them.
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me...
ReplyDeleteyou'd know that i have the most severe trust issues when it comes to males. Not because I got hurt in previous relationships for the simple fact I was sexually assaulted by my neighbor and than man I thought was my father my whole life turns out he isn't my biological father. As well, I tend to try to find the simplest of flaws just so I do not need to commit in that relationship with someone. I have so much to give but terrified to give it.
I've never committed to anything ...ever. Everyone walks in and out of my life, and I let them.
ReplyDeleteI am in love with my best friend. Sadly im not his type and i wish he could accept change and try something new aka me. I would treat him like gold and everyone says we'd make a cute couple. Its Depressing because I always see him with other guys and thinking about other guys and i know none of them would put out like me.
ReplyDeleteI'm afraid.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me, you'd know that I'm not as happy as I look. Happiness isn't a good job and a nice car. Like the saying goes, "Money can't buy happiness but I'd rather cry in a Ferrari."
ReplyDeleteI hold myself to impossible standards because I strive to be the pinnacle of perfection; I don't feel that I have any other option.
ReplyDeleteI have my dark moments and my light, but through it all, I continue to fight
ReplyDeleteI’m not as happy as I seem I struggle with a drug addiction. I’ve been sober for a year now but it never seems to get any better. every where I look I see something that reminds me of my old life. I have no real friends any more the only person that even seems to care is my boyfriend. Even then we fight at least once a day about stupid stuff. Some times I wish it would all just stop and life would go back to when I was 5 it would be simple then. I wouldn’t have to worry about finding another job, finding a place to live, getting a car. why cant live just be simple. Why can’t I be 5 again.
ReplyDeleteI care what other people think about me, and I act like I'm bigger than I actually am. I guess it use to make me feel like I was special, that I belonged. Now, I've given it all over to God, because we are all special, and we all belong!
ReplyDeleteI am one of the happiest people you'll ever meet, but I have not been happy with my life for several months. The only person I've ever loved left me, but has remained one of my best friends. I lost my job. My mom got cancer. I was told by my neurologist that I am addicted to pain pills, which is not true. My other doctor diagnosed me with anorexia and bulemia, which is some bullshit, because I have never made myself sick in my entire life. And I am happy with my body. The only thing in my life that I am satisfied with is school. And the only thing that makes me truly happy is church. I can honestly say that God is my best friend, and has helped me through a lot.
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me, you'd know that this sentence is terribly hard for me to finish because i'm not even sure i know myself. i'm recently sober and i'm just learning how it feels to just live again. i'm finding small things that make me happy; like sunny days and friendly conversations. it's going to take baby steps to continue on this road of happiness and sobriety but i know myself well enough to know i can do it
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me, you'd know that i enjoy being mean to people. its weird but i like the feeling of them groveling to get back on my good side. also if you really knew me...you would know that i question my life everyday..is this really who i am, is this realtionship right for me, am i going to be successful
ReplyDeleteThat I was kidding. Seriously, learn what my joking voice sounds like, and stop lecturing me because I apparently offended you. I'm not sorry that you can't take someone making a joke about your favorite branch of the military/actor/profession/religion/whatever. Now you're just wasting both of our times, and I don't actually give a fuck about what you have to say. Grow yourself a sense of humor, or stop talking to me.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me you would know that I am actually a really quiet person and I hate being loud and crazy. But I have a stigma that I am crazy and loud and I feel that if I do not live up to that standard that all of my friends will leave my side.
ReplyDeleteYou'd know that I am a repressed cannabis consumer.
ReplyDeleteIf you knew me you'd know that I love being the center of attention because my parents did not know how to love me enough. They were always self centered and considered me last. You would know that I'm highly sexual and that I'm not happy in my own skin. I'm needy and sensitive and can be hypocritical. I can be dishonest and I usually eat when I'm depressed or emotional. You would know that I can be swept up in material goods and Judge others. I do have redeeming qualities. I am intelligent, kind hearted, self-less, fashionable, well travelled, committed, hard working, and easy to get along with.
ReplyDeletei am scared shitless of the future
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ReplyDeleteI listen to nothing And I hear it all I stay close to the ground And still I fall I'm scared of heights But fly as a bird I'm the loudest muthafucka That won't say a word Feeling like a caged animal That somehow got loose
SILENCE!!! I scream Until I am the only one speaking Cover your eyes and turn off the light
While I am the only one peaking.....
If you really knew me, you'd know that I consider boredom a fate as bad as active displeasure. Boredom isn't the static position between good and bad; it is the absolute absence of interest in life, the universe, and everything, and the road to crippling, uncomfortable abstraction. Boredom is a slow death. You would also know that I'm very bad at entertaining myself.
ReplyDeletepeople think i am a big pothead stoner and im always fucked up..funny thing is IM NOT =] if you really knew me youd know that i love my family, they are everything and they are way better than doing drugs...=]
ReplyDeleteI have a problem with pushing people who care about me most away, I'm scared of getting too close to someone and loosing them. Having a relationship feels like an impossible task for me because I am too scared to fall in love...
ReplyDeleteWow...I responded to this anonymously earlier but after reading some of these it broke my heart and decided that I'm not ashamed to let you know it's me. I wore a happy go lucky smile around everyone, but inside I was in so much pain and torment. I'm married but that didn't stop me from doing things I shouldn't have. I have kids, but never considered myself a good father. I've been self centered and prideful and only focusing on my wants and needs. I finally had had enough and turned it over to God. Do I still have problems? Yes, but I know with God's help I'm going to make it, and so can you if you give him a chance!
ReplyDeleteI am scared to death of being raped. I have nightmares about rape all the time and its hard for me to go places by myself especially since I live in the city.
ReplyDeleteMy family means nothing to me. If they died today I'm not sure if i would even care. Sometimes I kind of wish they would so I wouldn't have to deal with all their shit anymore. As soon as I can't I'm getting emancipated and they'll never hear from me again..
ReplyDeleteI'm am filled with a plenitude of the truths and self-deceits, and like all people, am prone to make mistakes sometimes. But at the end of the day, I try my best to love and be loved, and without both failures and successes, I wouldn't be human. I am not perfect and I hope that I am able to understand this more than anyone.
ReplyDelete...that I grew up too fast, I'm afraid of falling asleep for fear that my future will fly right past me, and I really want to kiss the sky. If you really knew me, you'd know that I sing off key and I dance [poorly] in public even if there is no music, my favorite food is spinach, and I still play with Barbies. If only you knew me, you'd know I'm not normal and I don't want to be.
ReplyDeleteYou would know that I have learned from many of my mistakes, have been loved as deeply as I have been hurt. Would not have traded any of my experiences, the good, the bad, or the ugly for anything for they have shaped me into the person I am today. I still look for my knight in shining armor and believe in soul mates. If you knew me you would know my faith has been held on by a thread at times only to be molded into a chord of steel that can never be broken. Life through all of its twists and turns creates wiser people if we take the time to choose carefully our steps even if we fall down, as long as we continue to get up.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me you would know that when I LOVE, I LOVE deeply. I am fiercly loyal to those I love, but know where their boundries begin and end. I have been disappointed and frequently hurt and have disappointed and hurt others too. Even though I know Jesus says to not look back, I still peek back with happiness and regret. You would know that there were times I wish I would have spoke up for myself and other times when I should have given in out of love. You would know that I let life hurt me and steer me away from many things that God intended me to pursue. I was lost but now am found, was blind but now I see.-Clergyman John Newton. I feel sad and lonely sometimes, but live by the words my mother said..."When I am gone, remember you are not alone, He's by your side, just reach out and hold His hand. Oh, and I can't watch the news or ASPCA commercials without crying up a storm!
ReplyDeleteAnd at last...I love you, you are a bright and shining star!
If you really knew me then you would know that I don't care if you really know me or not.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me then you would know that I am at a point in my life where it's all about experiences. Whether it's acting experience, audition experience, dating experience, kissing experience, or even love expererience. But keep this in mind...be very careful with the love experience. It could end up biting you in the butt. It's ok to make mistakes now because you learn from them later in life. I am still growing as a person.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me then you would know that I have a tumor in my brain. Not only is it there, but surgery and radiation is currently not an option. I'm not afraid of it killing me, but Im afraid Ill go to sleep one night and never wake up and I won't get to say goodbye and then that will lead to me being forgotten.
ReplyDeleteYou would know that behind my chipper face is a girl that gets up every morning dreading to look in the mirror to see the blob of a body that she has. I dont hate life.. i just hate who i've become.
ReplyDeletei find introspection to be the sole entrance to inner peace, i am not quiet because i am boring but i want what i say to carry a certain weight
ReplyDeleteI am really completely crazy and unstable. I am not who I seem to be, although I try hard to really be a sweet, kind, caring person. I don't really trust anyone, and I don't feel any real connections to anyone anymore. I feel that I will never be able to truly be happy, and life is more or less a getting by and waiting to die to rejoin the people who have gone on ahead.
ReplyDeleteim a bigger kid strong both physically and emotionally and people dont relize how i may feel and that i always wish people would judge me for the size of my heart and not hw big my arms are i know it may sound corny but its true i wish people wouldnt be look damn that guys is jacked or big instead i wish they would say damn hes cute or damn his gf is ucky i wish people would relize how sensitive i really am =/ but i love everyone =]
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ReplyDeleteI'm not as strong as I appear. I struggle with a lot of things that run through my mind. I'm not as happy as I used to be. I don't have many friends. The friends I do have come and go. I wish I could see myself from someone else's shoes because I'm not sure whats so special that everyone else sees. I don't say no very often. I'm incredibly lazy and it sucks. I hide a lot of things but I'm much more open then I used to be. If there is one thing that I ever want to become out of my dreams, it's a mother.
ReplyDeleteAll I wanted is to belong to a loving and caring family that I could be proud to say I belong to.
ReplyDeletei have no true friends anymore. i have no one to count on but myself. i was left with one true blue person that i knew would always be there.. but now shes gone.
ReplyDeleteI'm not happy with who I am, and I have no idea how to change it. I'm scared that I'm hindering myself from becoming what I want to be, and what I know I'm capable of.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I'm unlovable. You'd know that even though I seem confident in myself and my sexuality, I, once again, have no idea. I'm utterly terrified of not having one special person in my life because society says that's how gay men act, and because I know my family will not be there for me.
ReplyDeleteYou'd know that my family isn't perfect, it isn't even the least bit close, and although I seem like that's ok to me, all I ever wanted growing up was a normal family. You'd know that I feel like a disappointment to everyone, and that one day, I hope to get far away from my small town, even if I don't make a big name for myself, at least all those back home won't know it.
I don't like sex as much as people expect me to. I don't like it as much as I expect me to. And the whole ordeal terrifies me on so many levels.
ReplyDeletethe time we spent together in the airport was a great memory i will remember for a long time. rare is it to find a person so willing to reach out to others, and yet the small gesture leaves a great impact.
ReplyDeleteI am easily taken advantage of.
ReplyDeleteI don't believe that being gay or bisexual is a sin. Yes, I believe in God and I believe that he created us- man and woman- to REPRODUCE. That does not mean that you can't have a same sex relationship; heterosexual partners are essential for reproduction. People always say that God didn't create man to be with man or woman to be with woman. Well, I think people pick and choose what they want from the bible and infest it with their HUMAN brains. I've known people to say that they've been delivered from homosexuality... those same people are choosing to be with man nor woman. That's not true deliverance. I believe they're are choosing to be lonely and unhappy because the CHURCH is telling them that what they prefer is wrong. I say that's BULLSHIT!!! If you want to be gay or bi or whatever, you can do that, but the same rules apply for Christians- no sex before marriage and all that good stuff lol..
ReplyDeleteI am not intouch with myself. I have never found the answer to "Who am I?". I define myself through other peoples eyes, opinions, reactions. I am lost within myself.
ReplyDeleteI can honestly say that since i moved i have never been the same since. I hate where i am right now in my life and i just hope that i can somehow pull myself out of this mess that i am in. I also have a broken heart that will never heal until i get that one people back. But what can you really do?? Nothing you just have to get on with your life and hope for the best which is what i am doing :]
ReplyDeleteim not the bitch i lead people to believe i am. I try way to hard at all the wrong things, sometimes. I cant stay focused when im thinking about "her", when i comes down to it i care a WHOLE LOT more than i would ever care for you to know because that would make me feel weak in who you think i am and leave me vulnerable. i never thought one person could influence my life truly influence and change it until i met "her" and now i know i am changed because of her presence i can now say these things weather it be anonymous or not i can admit im not the strongest person on earth i would like to be but im not and i do cry when no one is looking but only then because if everyone seen me cry they would see that there is a soft spot in what appears to them as a unbreakable suit of armor.....most of all you would all see the mosaic my heart appears as from the scares it bares from times when my armor didn't seem so flawless and i let people slip through just to get my heart broken in the end; you would also see that i mean it wholeheartedly when i say she is the one for me and with whom i intend to remain, that there will be no duplicate keys made in the future to my heart because it cant bear the thought of losing this love or trying to rebuild if it were lost....that for the first time i might be fighting but im happy
ReplyDeletethat beneath all the layers of bullshit i let people see im very guarded, ive been hurt A LOT, that my heart has been broken and hasn't healed in some spots yet, that the love i have could be fa nominal, but most of all that i hate myself for things i have done in the past i hate myself more and more every time someone hurts because of me my heart bleeds every time i think about hurting someone i love, that these thoughts engulf me sometimes like 1000 foot flames, and i hate when i let that happen but i just go on assuming that is my punishment for hurting others. My punishment is to slowly torture and kill myself from the inside out
ReplyDeleteI come off as confident and capable of anything. Yet some days my self-esteem is so low I can't think of anything but my failure to do more.
ReplyDeleteI really am flawless.
ReplyDeleteif you really knew me..
ReplyDeleteWell, you would know that I always try to look on the bright side of every experience life throws at me. Overall, I am incredibly happy, and am excited for what the future brings. I am grateful for a certain adventurous best friend whom I can be completely myself around. I am grateful for my mind, my body, an education, food, water, a roof over my head and my overall health. I am grateful that I have learned from my parent's addiction, so that I hopefully won't repeat the same mistakes. I am very grateful for my boyfriend, who amazes me more and more with every day. I have grown to love him deeply because he helps me grow as a person in many ways. Since I have a difficult time trusting other males, I am very thankful for his love and trust. Most of all, I am grateful for being a spiritual being, and having a higher power who listens to me and brings me guidance in my life.
I feel joyous after writing what I am thankful for.
That I love you and that family is the most important thing to me.
ReplyDeleteTHAT my worst fear is not amounting to what I have potential to become. That one day I will look back on the life I am leading today and wish I could have done more to accomplish what I have set out to be. And if that ever happens I will lose control of my sanity.
ReplyDeletei walk around with a smile but it`s takinq every bit of strenqth i have not to commit suicide.
ReplyDeletei have feeling for a girl that doesn't know i exist and i always put on a fake smile to keep others happy.
ReplyDeletei've fallen in love with a woman that i can never ever have.
ReplyDeleteI only care about what my family thinks of me.. no one else.
ReplyDeletei am sad. i may look happy and act it.but im broken inside and nobody can fix it.
ReplyDeleteAt times I look strong but secretly I wish I was someone else to escape these insanities of life. Becomming someone else keeps me from going insane.
ReplyDeleteIf you really knew me you'd know that I need change.
ReplyDelete...I am actually a very happy and satisfied person.
ReplyDeleteI love you.
ReplyDeletei have been a near victim of rape several times and unlucky enough to actually have it happen once. i don't trust men anymore but crave a close and open sexual relationship where i can be completely relaxed and in love. it terrifies me that i may never find this.
ReplyDeleteI am truly a self centered piece of shit who is disappointed that i choose to be an asshole everyday. I hate myself and love everyone else...almost everyone.
ReplyDeleteJust because my family has money my life is not perfect or even close. I was sexual abuse by father for years, am still struggling with addiction, I'm failing my senior year, I've been in a mental hospital 3 time for cutting, I was in rehab at age 16, and I have alot of medical problems. Some days I feel like I really can't handle this anymore. My home life is horrible screaming and yelling nonstop. My parents constantly tell me how I am a screw up and am never gonna get anywhere in life. I know this sound so cliche but my girlfriend ( I'm a lesbian too) is the only person that is really there for me. We have been together for 6 months. The scars on my arms are on constant reminder of my past and the mistakes I've made. I hope my future is better but some day I really doubt it.
ReplyDeleteGiving up on my mom was the most painful thing I've done in my short life and I know it has made me a colder person. I am changing that though.
ReplyDeletei find it difficult to go through life sober because things are spiraling out of control. i was top of my high school class until my senior year. destined for great things until my senior year. praised and well-behaved until my senior year. until my senior year, when i began to experiment with alcohol and the feeling of completely letting oneself go, letting the drug control one's mind and letting the worries fade with one's vision. then i was raped at a party. i never told anyone. it was my first time. i've never been the same since. this summer has been full of clubs and raves and parties, of dorms and apartments and fast cars, of floors and basements and beds. i've been hooking up with more guys than i can count. i haven't liked any of them. even before i go to work, i have to take a shot of vodka to get through. i now carry a flask inside my purse. i am eighteen years old, about to start my freshman year in college, in a college eight hours away from my hometown, away from everyone i know, and i think i might be an alcoholic. i don't know what to do or what to say or who to talk to and so i'm just living day by day and waiting to die.
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