The things that you know about yourself are easy to admit. Well, the ones that don't make you look bad at least. It seems so hard to just admit your faults. Like it makes you less of a person. But in reality it makes you a better person to know your faults and be able to admit them. But you still think about the ridicule. Why are we so afraid of what people think?
I see things in the world around me and in people that others may miss. This can be a blessing and a curse. I rely on my inner thoughts and feelings in dealing with the world around me. I've always looked more towards my own ideas and experiences than what I was told by my religious upbringing or from scientific evidence. I'm not bound by common, but love to travel and have new experiences. I enjoy intelligence, but also enjoy a challenge. I can be pretty argumentative when I'm being forced or feel as if I am being forced to conform. The rebel side I get from my dad.
I'm energetic, lively, and optimistic. I want to contribute to the world. The best way to get along with me is to give me companionship, affection, and freedom. Good conversation with a hint of sarcasm from time to time. Get just as grossly happy over my visions as I do and listen to my stories. Don't try to change me; I'm way too stubborn for that. Accept me the way I am. Be responsible for yourself; I don't like clingy or needy. Above all, don't tell me what to do.
I love being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down. The crazy spontaneity that life has to offer makes me think that anything is possible. I even indulge in the fact that I'm outspoken and outrageous. It's all part of the fun. I also love having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures. Whether it be a good or bad experience, it's a lesson nonetheless.
But I don't have enough time to do all the things I want. I often don't finish things I start. I don't profit from the benefits that come from specializing; it's hard for me to make a commitment to a career. I have a tendency to be ungrounded and can get lost in plans or fantasies.
And for the grand finale, as a parent I will probably have a mix of traits. Want my kids to be exposed to many adventures in life but I may be too busy with my own activities to be attentive.
Looking back on that, I just described both of my parents. I'm ok with that because it just means that I can do things right that weren't done right in the past. I can make myself better than them. I can also do everything they did right. And my kids will one day be doing the same thing. I hope they succeed. I hope I succeed. I know that everyone has to have flaws to make them human but even if I could just minimize some of them. Defeat a good majority. I think my kids will turn out alright.
